avenged_7_x

How Could You Do This To Me? How The Fuck Could You Do This To Me?

2005-08-20T05:25:10Z

"Vermillion, Pt. 2"

She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad.

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

A catch in my throat choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, nO!
I don't wanna be this...

But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real

Seize The Day Or Die Regretting The Time You Lost..

2005-07-07T04:37:29Z

"Seize The Day"

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memoriesfor us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

avenged_7_x @ 2005-04-12T20:40:00

2005-04-13T01:53:49Z

YoU aRe EvErYtHiNg To mE

2005-03-14T23:40:10Z

"Sunsets And Car Crashes"

I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes
As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight
And after three long years, I think that we both need this
So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss

And in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as stars chase you away

I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head
Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead
But all the while my lips are whistling our tune
But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon

And in case you, and in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me
Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet
Now tell me this, do you know how we'd meet?

And in case you were wondering, you are everything to me

avenged_7_x @ 2005-03-12T00:11:00

2005-03-12T06:12:29Z

Same old, same old

IIIIIII'm so gangsta

2005-02-22T03:12:55Z

Jeffrey is a looser, not a loser, but a LOOSER

P.S: I LOVE YOU!!!<333333333

avenged_7_x @ 2005-02-13T01:54:00

2005-02-13T07:54:24Z

"Dope Show"

The drugs they say make us feel so hollow
We love in vain narcissistic and so shallow
The cops and queers to swim you have to swallow
Hate today, no love for tomorrow

We're all stars now in the dope show

There's a lot of pretty, pretty ones
That want to get you high
But all the pretty, pretty ones
Will leave you low and blow your mind

They love you when you're on all the covers

When you're not then they love another

The drugs they say are made in California
We love your face
We'd really like to sell you
The cops and queers make good-looking models
I hate today
Who will I wake up with tomorrow?

There's a lot of pretty, pretty ones

avenged_7_x @ 2005-02-13T01:50:00

2005-02-13T07:50:59Z

MARILYN MANSON LYRICS

"Man That You Fear"

the ants are in the sugar
the muscles atrophied
we're on the other side, the screen is us and we're t.v.
spread me open,
sticking to my pointy ribs
are all your infants in abortion cribs
I was born into this
everything turns to shit
the boy that you loved is the man that you fear
pray until your number,
asleep from all your pain,
your apple has been rotting
tomorrow's turned up dead
i have it all and i have no choice but to
i'll make everyone pay and you will see
you can kill yourself now
because you're dead
in my mind
the boy that you loved is the monster you fear
peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
you've poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
pray your life was just a dream
the cut that never heals
pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)
pinch the head off, collapse me like a weed
someone had to go this far
I was born into this
everything turns to shit
the boy that you loved is the man that you fear
peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
you've poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
pray your life was just a dream
the cut that never heals
pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
the world in my hands, there's no one left to hear you scream
there's no one left for you

NIGGA WHAT!?!?!?!?

2005-02-06T02:58:59Z

yea yea motha fucka

it was all a dream

i read word up magazeeeen

yea yea

yea yea

2005-02-05T01:58:39Z

Im a penis face and I dont have one friend. No one wants to help my broken heart mend.
I wish I was cool, but I don't like school.
Im really really tall, and I like to play with my .. ball.
I play bball, but I get no calls.
Boy I wish I was popular, maybe I should be a copular.
I love Jill, and I like to eat dill.
I am a gansta, I'm glad you camsta.

avenged_7_x @ 2005-01-31T22:11:00

2005-02-01T04:12:48Z

NEWS FLASH! THIS JUST IN: I LOVE JILLIAN ALLISON LOUSIE SWAN

<333333333333333333333333

avenged_7_x @ 2005-01-31T22:09:00

2005-02-01T04:10:55Z

I LOVEEEE JILLL

NO I LOOOOOVVEEE JILL

sigh..

2005-01-30T20:29:06Z

BRIGHT EYES LYRICS

"No Lies, Just Love"

It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm
Cause it's cold out here
And it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss
So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies
Just love.
Just love.

I will be pure
No, no, I know i will be pure
Like snow, like gold

♥♥♥ You're the smell before rain, You're the blood in my viens. ♥♥♥

2005-01-25T05:33:00Z

Well it's Jill .. Jeffery wanted me to write him an entry .. so I am .. cuz I'm so nice =)

WELL seeing as it's me and jeffs 4 month eve .. I think everyone needs to know how me and my dear jeffery met <3 .. because I said so.

First of all, I met bird in comfermation .. yes yes I'm a church girl... and he invited me to his firend kellys house .. and vanessa and jeff where there, and karli (kellys gf) came later.. and jeff was wearing his "Thursday" shirt .. WELL me and bird were talking about how good of a couple vanessa and jeff would make and how cute they were together a so forth .. and I remember thinking that from the back he looked like adam brotty .. don't ask why .. I just did.

Then when I would hang out with my other firends in W.R I'd randomly see jeff and vanessa walking around and I'd hyperly run up to them and be like HEY! .. and like talk to them while trying to run away from matt and nate .. my other friends [ ps i miss them =( ]

Then I got Jeffs email from bird and we'd talk about like everything and I would help him with his girl problems, like vanessa and karen. Then he had this wonderful idea to meat up one day with paul [ I met paul when a bunch of them came up to matts house when I was TOTALLY smoking nate at bbll .. woot woot]

So then we met up right behind the wal-mart .. well pretty close .. and I remember jeff was wearing this black shirt with the jordan symbol on it and these like 'cackey' tan coloured shorts .. aka .. flood pants .. and paul was wearing this red and blue striped polo shirt [ wow I remember the weirdest things] I cant really remember what else happend that day .. but we went to wal-mart and met up with these 2 girls paul new .. so basically it was me and jeff sitting there.

So then we became best firends .. like me him and paul .. and I met all of the W.R gang .. and we all hung out .. and mean while jeff liked this girl karen who I was helping him try and 'get' .. and it WOULD have worked .. if he didn't start to like me =)

So Jeff started to like moi .. but me being me .. thought it would be just a 'fling' cuz all of my other 'relationships' aka 'flings' were ... well 'flings' .. and I didn't wanna ruin our firend ship. But he didn't give up .. so I gave in and started to like him.. so he had to choose between me or karen .. and I had to choose between him and will .. who I also liked

Well Will went off to where ever the hell he went .. and I was going to wait and see when will got back if i still liked him or not .. but tony told me to go for Jeff because he is such an awsome guy and such... So I started liking Jeff more and more and we hung out like everyday too.. so it was for Jeff to decied .. and also karen started to like him back... so it was up to him. So I told him that whatever he decided I'd be fine with...

WELL in the end he chose me =) <3 .. but I screwed it up .. by .. doing something really stupid with this guy .. but I was drunk .. so it didnt count .. kinda ... so we had a huge fight and everyonoe in W.R hated me .. like hated .. and at the time I didn't even know I did what I did .. but no one belived me ... anywho things were akward for a bit .. but he forgave me .. and it was all good.. so after that it took him like a month to ask me out ... even tho he knew I'd obviously say yes

So .. on the night of september 25th a bunch of us were at HGI and me and jeff were off on the grass .. I was on top of him cause I so totally tackeld him .. and at 9:49pm he pulled me close and said "Go out with me" ... and me .. in a really girly .. really high pitched voice .. said "ok"

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love this boy .. and I always will

Jeffery and my hat

Jeffery <3

us on his webcam .. with bird in the back

Us again on webcam .. aww i love this pic .. i have no clue why

me being board and him playing PS2

This icon just reminds me of him =)

Him tickleing me.. we have the same watch .. creepy eh =)

I cant tell if he was kissing me on the cheek .. or telling me something .. or just smileing at me

Me looking confused and like I'm 5 .. that was gate night

this was our first picture together .. and it's still my favorite .. don't ask why .. maybe this was when I started to like him .. I donno but I still love it .. and him ♥♥♥

StutterFly

2005-01-08T05:40:54Z

Life's Disease

I feel so numb.
All i've become has fallen apart.
Hole in my heart,

Severed fragments of my being pieced together give life meaning.
Fragile quilt offaded memories torn apart by life's disease...
Again i will cry, all is a lie, that you must break, heal my heartache.

yea so everything is going pretty good. i saw some old friends a couple days ago and that was fun. i'm tired

o yea jill is the very best
<3333

every reason to

2005-01-04T07:05:14Z

Why are u fun to kiss?

Because ur the most lovely girl i have ever seen and i get the enjoyment of pressing ur lips against mine and i get this feeling that i never want to stop kissing you because when we're togeather i don't need any drug or fix to get me throught the day because all i really need in this world is you.

avenged_7_x @ 2004-12-30T01:59:00

2004-12-30T08:04:13Z

So maybe i havn't writen anything in a long time. MAybe i love this girl named jill. Maybe i actully love her and mean it with all my heart. Just maybe everything is so perfect right now i'm scared of feeling like shit again. o yea merry christmas. but seriously. it's like a drug only worse much worse. because if i loose her i will crash so hard becasue i need her so much. but i'm so happy. but i'm so scared. and i can't wait to start this band it makes me bop a little bit.

avenged

2004-12-23T04:01:00Z

Shattered By Broken Dreams

I see you fading away from us.
I'll miss you very much.
Room with empty bottles, broken dreams, and pride still running high, always on your side.
But I wanted more for you.
You can't go on this way.
And now I see it all fall through.
We pray for better days.
Stuck alone and scared.
Throw your life away and now choking on your pride may be the only way.
I don't want to see you like this.
We all tried to save you but missed.
I still feel the hope on your road.
Now come back to us like the days of the old.
I still feel you there, trying to get on top.
You'll always have my support, in my heart.
People you've hurt.
Friends that you've lied to.
But we understand, and that s not (you) can see the end of the road,
I can see it too, for you, I'm scared, if I lose you, I'm not prepared.
This time, if you die.
I watch you, right before my eyes.
Just trust me, and listen.
You have no self control.
This will take your life.
Overdose and then indulge until you die.
Pondering, we all ask the question why.
Broken home, and then abandoned by your dad.
And we are left the only family that you've ever had.
Help you see it through.
Fight this me and you.
Reaching deep inside.
Problems not just you is what we find.
Our friendship makes it mine.

avenged_7_x @ 2004-11-18T18:35:00

2004-11-19T00:37:37Z

This is the end.
This story's old but it goes on and on until we disappear,
This is the calm.
Calm me and let me taste the salt you breathed while you were underneath,
We are the mountains.
I am the one who haunts your dreams of mountains sunk below the sea,
After the storm.
I spoke the words but never gave a thought of what they all could mean,
Rest in the sea.
I know that this is what you want,
A funeral keeps both of us apart.
Washed up on the beach.
You know that you are not alone
I need you like water in my lungs.
This is the end.

Bled

2004-11-14T21:36:49Z

1. Red Wedding

You are the teeth and the lungs. Biting back and breathing in. Cracked like
a frozen moon. The heat lampseeps into the pores. This is your interrogation
your fingerprints betray your eyes. Died on your honeymoon she made such a
lovely bride. Left the door unlocked for you. The leeches took their turn.
Deny. Your alibi was painted by a blind politician. Inside your swollen eyes
sleeps a genius buried by miscalculations. You are the teeth and the lungs.
Biting back and breathing in. Your love is homicide. The queen is beckoning,
get on your knees and beg for your life. You will pay the price. Close your
eyes and die.

2. You Know Who's Seatbelt

The signal flares will light the way to the scene of the accident, where
we'll dance like a pile of teeth in a broken mouth. Such a sick celebration.
Everyone loves a fucking tragedy in epic proportions. Lets set our hearts at
self-destruct. Like scarlet drips on a white tile floor. A cardiac
metronome. We'll scrape the guardrail from our teeth and start again.
There's a flood in the infirmary where we'll swim through broken glass. Our
prosthetic limbs will keep us afloat. Lets set our hearts at self-destruct.

3. I Never Met Another Gemini

Slowly we peel away the layers and the light seeps through the cracks. You
whispered softly in my ear "the birth of morning's upon us, dear," the
bandages feel upon the floor. And there was no one in that room. It's quiet
down the hallway where the doctors wash their hands. Behind my eyes I feel
the hollow jabs of your morphine kiss. Your anesthetic voice is autographed
upon my bones. This reception died in vein. In vain. A tarnished angel
leaves her ghost on the surface. A jealous daughter starves to death for the
mother as I awaited your return. I wait for your return. It seems the only
way that I will ever feel alive. Throw myself into my injuries and close my
eyes. I'd give anything to feel alive. And I will wait for you tonight. The
scalpel carves a map for you.

4. Ruth Buzzi Better Watch Her Back

Somewhere between the frozen layers sleeps a fragile woman. Waiting for her
husband to remove the shards of glass. The sun betrays the light that it
once shed. And daughter cuts the hair. Tangled in a silver brush. Spitting
at a broken mirror. I feel the movement of ghosts in the room. She keeps a
photograph locked in her mouth. The smell of turpentine drips from the
walls. Forgive and forget. Relive and regret. You're not alone. I've seen
the dead arise. The ice will someday thaw and she will wait no more.

5. Sound Of Sulfur

Waiting for the sun to set my wings ablaze. The show must go on. The funeral
needs star. Tonight I have become the gossip and the choir. The useless and
the used. The one who reaches for her arms. I am denial. You are the one who
fell from grace for them. Is there a reason why? The funeral needs a star.
As you walk away for the last time could you hear my heart consumed behind
you? As you turn your back from the dying did you feel the sun burn out
inside you? You set my wings ablaze. You will run from familiar arms into
their embrace. I hope they love you like I did when you needed me and I came
for you that night.

6. Porcelain Hearts And Hammers for Teeth

I'd burn alive to keep you warm when you're alone. Shiver under blankets in
the basement where our secrets sleep. You pour the liquor on the staircase,
girl. Pass the flask and close your eyes. Are you grieving for what we've
become? Are you running from that room? We set the evidence on fire. We
light cigarettes and chase out old regrets. Are you grieving for tonight? I
smell the sulfur on her skin (breathe in). Yesterday will be the end of you
and I. Yesterday will be the end of shoulders where we rest our head. Now we
grieve for tomorrow goes on without us. Now we breathe for no one else.
Everything is broken slowly sinking under waiting for tomorrow waiting for
the grave to tell me that she's lonely. Open up and hold me slowly feel my
body becoming one and only. Death is just an excuse to forget you. Now we
run from ourselves. Hope lies not in the mirror. I'll burn alive for you.

7. Get Up You Son Of A Bitch, Cause Mickey Loves Ya

The telephone swallowed the child. This is the last time I say your name.
The crackle and hiss from the walls. You smile like a catholic in heat. Just
don't forget what you've done. Just don't forget. This is the last time that
I say your name. Forget the fuck away from me. The child is sleeping under
the wires.

8. Spitshine Sonata

I lost my voice in the fire. I burned my eyes staring at your eclipse. I was
just a child. My father's favorite. Such delicate arms keep reaching toward
the horizon. As we keep starving for this beauty we are sick with distance.
Starving for this beauty. We are sick with distance. Grieving for his
failure. You keep me on my knees mummified in your arms. This is the last
chance that you will get to breathe my name into his chest. Only the deaf
find peace. Only the blind won't reach.

9. We Are The Industry

You plug me in and turn me on. Turn on me. I am your device of manufactured
hope. You plug me in and turn me into wires and blood. I am your trophy wife
shaking hands with your guests. Hi my name is "yours". The unfortunate ones
will be spared. We are the industry. I'm sorry but your name is not on the
list. Your results do not comply. Your ashes will fuel the machine. We are
the industry. We are the birth and the death.

10. Nothing We Say Leave This Room

Your eyes being to stare at the polygraph machine as you become aware of the
satellites that call her name. It's as if the ocean swallowed the city
lights that we fell in love with. Paralyzed and paranoid, we withdraw the
hands we held. This is beginning to get ugly, dear. You feed me to the
lions. Now the tongue becomes the bridge between broken teeth. Now you feed
me to the lions. How we reach for the arms but only clasp the knees. How we
reach for each other only to die alone. How we reach for the stars only to
swim through the dead. How we strive to connect only to fall apart. Just
between me and you I felt the rapture in your arms.

avenged_7_x @ 2004-11-14T00:00:00

2004-11-14T06:00:34Z

Your LJ Prison by redfrog021
Username
Favorite Deadly Sin
You are convicted of	Stalking the Hobbitses
And sentenced to	10 years
Warden	ibledthrough
Abusive redneck guard	death_forlife
Easy to bribe guard	pa_ul
Cellmate	eoniannightmare
Wants to make you their bitch	mar_lena
Drops soap in the shower on purpose	sexandlollipops
Works in the laundry and smells people's undies	pa_ul
Comes to see you for 'conjugal visits'	mar_lena

Quiz created with MemeGen!

avenged_7_x @ 2004-11-13T23:36:00

2004-11-14T05:42:06Z

lol. petro canada washroom. o god. i'll never forget tonight EVER i swear. i'm gonna be laughing about it forever. i'm gonna write a book and tell my kids about it. :) yes and yea thats it tonight was fun/cold.

Well it's love, make it hurt i deserve it.

2004-11-12T18:07:13Z

Nothing to say. except... no nothing to say. i wish i could play piano for some reason. piano always sounds cool in punk songs. like the one i'm listening to right now. well. i guess its not really punk. more harcore/metal/metalcore/sexy. but i like this song. and i like jillian only i don't like her the way i like this song. so i think love is a better word weither the 3 people that will read this beilve me or not. i love her.

avenged_7_x @ 2004-11-07T12:01:00

2004-11-07T18:02:05Z

I Love You

avenged_7_x @ 2004-11-06T19:39:00

2004-11-07T01:40:58Z

wow i wish i was as cool as jill